31 August 2012
29 August 2012
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19 August 2012
roi de rats
warm sand in my hands
on a beach by the abyss;
in silence eternity rests
gazing into the depths.
today the time bent again
to a moment under the sun;
memories of an evening
penetrated my thick skull.
innocence can but linger
as stories become a crime;
of dreams I am the weaver
in the brutal hands of time.
as I get up to walk the sands
I know I have done wrong;
blood running into my hands
I give in for the saddest song.
hear, dear
heavens near
the seas of aether
remember these hands
of distant,
nonexistent lands?
rare is the touch
that reaches
the soul
the soul
without
time and space
is the heart of identity
is the heart of identity
18 August 2012
Dyslexic man went into a bra
a birthday poem for a dyslexic young man who turned twenty-five yesterday
when the stars are out at night
we know the sun's deceit
counting days feels very real
counting days feels very real
though time is ethereal
one day, or sleepless night
opens up a new sight
with an eye that cannot blink
the mind unable to think
we call a gaze like that amazing
truly a gift that keeps on giving
alas, I'm not the one to hand it out
here just to shed the doubt
12 August 2012
07 August 2012
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Excerpt from Native American Spirituality: Path of Heart. Don Juan Matus, Eagle, and Others. Edition by Vladimir Antonov. Translated from Russian by Mikhail Nikolenko.
The
Teachings of Juan Matus were described in detail by Carlos
Castaneda — our contemporary from Los Angeles. His books known to
us were published in the period from 1966 to 1987. We also know the
book by D.C.Noel Seeing Castaneda,
which contains interviews with him.
It
must be noted right away that in his books Castaneda describes the
period of his relationship with don Juan that lasted for about three
decades. Over this period, it was not only Castaneda who advanced in
his development but also don Juan himself. Reading Castaneda’s
books, one can see both the early and the later personal spiritual
quest of don Juan, which was not free from mistakes. This is why the
spiritual concept of this School must be evaluated not based on what
don Juan spoke and did over these decades, but on what he attained by
the end of his earthly life.
So,
the future author of bestsellers about the School of Juan Matus,
Carlos Castaneda was an undergraduate student in a university in the
USA, majoring in anthropology. He had to collect material for his
thesis, so he went to Mexico to study the experience of Indians in
using medicinal and psychotropic plants. Upon arrival to Mexico, he
started searching for people competent in this issue. He was
introduced to an Indian, whose name was Juan Matus and who agreed to
provide Castaneda with the data he needed free of charge.
They
got acquainted, and their joint work began. In due course, Castaneda
discovered that don Juan possessed the knowledge not only about the
qualities of plants but also about the ancient art of Toltec Indians’
sorcery. Moreover, don Juan turned out to be a sorcerer himself. For
the first time in his life, Castaneda came across phenomena that were
beyond his secular and religious beliefs. For example, it turned out
that lizards could talk, people could fly with their bodies, extract
various things “out of nowhere”, and so on. Castaneda found
himself captivated by all these and interested as a scientist in
this, new for him, area of knowledge.
Once
don Juan invited Castaneda to a meeting where his associates were
taking self-made psychedelics. Castaneda tried them as well. And what
happened then made don Juan, for the first time, view Castaneda as a
promising disciple. Don
Juan was a mystic, he perceived the whole world in a mystical way. In
particular, he attached great importance to so-called signs coming
to him from the separate reality.
It
happened that Castaneda, upon swallowing a few pills of peyote,
started playing a strange game with a dog. They began to urinate on
each other… It was the dog’s behavior, absolutely unusual for a
dog, that was of significance there. It was interpreted by don Juan
as a sign from God (Who was called the Power in this tradition)
indicating the significance of non-Indian Castaneda for the School.
Since that moment, Castaneda became a member of the party (that is,
the group) of don Juan’s disciples. And don Juan started to
initiate him gradually into the secret knowledge of his School.
What
was the worldview concept of the School?
The
universe consists of two “parallel” worlds: the first of them is
called the tonal (that is, the world of material things),
and the second — the nagual (the non-material world). We
communicate with the world of matter through the so-called first
attention, i.e. the attention relying on the organs of sense of the
physical body. To
become able of cognizing the nagual, one has to develop the second
attention, that is, clairvoyance.
There
is also the third attention, by means of which one perceives the
Creator and His Manifestation, which don Juan referred to as
the Fire. According
to the mythology shared by don Juan’s predecessors, the world is
governed by the universal divine Eagle. This was their concept of
God. However fantastic it seems, it is monotheistic.
This
Eagle feeds on souls that leave human bodies. But the Eagle also
confers the chance on some people to “skip” past His beak after
death and to achieve immortality, provided that during their life in
the body they acquired skills necessary for this, developed
themselves as consciousnesses to the required degree, and gained the
required power.
This
concept contained a frightening element, which was supposed to force
a person to make efforts on self-perfection. But, like Jesus
Christ, don Juan strongly opposed this attitude towards God, which
was based on fear. He said that in order to approach God, one has to
take the path of heart — that is the path of Love. It is
interesting that don Juan came to this understanding independently of
the influence of other spiritual traditions. He was not familiar with
the Teachings of either Krishna or Jesus Christ, nor has he ever read
Sufi or Taoist books. It is obvious that he did not read the New
Testament, otherwise he would quote it for sure.
A
person resolved to achieve immortality, first has to become a
“hunter”. Not a hunter who kills game, but that for knowledge,
who walks the path of heart — caring, loving both the
Earth and beings that live on it. Having
mastered the stage of spiritual “hunter”, one can become a
spiritual “warrior” — that is the one who “traces” Power
(God), striving to “stalk” It and to cognize It.
Don
Juan often taught Castaneda and his other disciples when they walked
in the desert and in the mountains — in the most natural conditions
of direct contact with the world that surrounds us. For
instance, once they caught a wild rabbit. Don Juan knew that the life
of this rabbit on the Earth was coming to an end, according to its
destiny. And he suggested that Castaneda kill this rabbit with his
own hands. Castaneda exclaimed, “I cannot do this!” Don Juan
objected, “But you have killed animals before!” Castaneda
replied, “Yes, but I killed them with my rifle, from a distance,
without having to see them die…”
Castaneda
refused to commit killing; for the first time he thought about his
ethic right to do this, about the suffering of the creatures being
killed. However,
the rabbit died by itself before Castaneda’s eyes, because the time
of its stay on the Earth had really run out.
Once
don Juan and Castaneda were walking down the street and saw a snail
crossing the road. And don Juan used this example to explain the
philosophy of the role of a person in the destinies of other
creatures.
In
such a way Castaneda, who at the beginning was very proud of his
being a learned and civilized person, became increasingly convinced
that true wisdom belonged not to him but to this old Indian, a great
spiritual Seeker and Teacher, who lived the life of a hunter and a
warrior in harmony with the world around him. After
his disciples had mastered the basics of ethics and wisdom, don Juan
would proceed to teaching them psychoenergetical methods.
It
should be noted here that only a very limited number of students were
accepted into don Juan’s School. The criterion of selection was the
level of the development of the energy structures of the organism —
the chakras. Of course, Indians did not use such words as
chakras and dantians. But they spoke of segments in the
energy cocoon of man. And only disciples with the developed
chakras were considered to be promising and able to withstand on the
path of a hunter and warrior.
Therefore,
those enrolled in the School had a big experience in
psychoenergetical work acquired in their previous lives on the Earth.
That is, they were ready for serious work from the psychoenergetical
standpoint. This
allowed them to start psychoenergetical training not with cleansing
and development of the meridians and chakras, but immediately with
development of the main power structure of the organism — hara (the
lower dantian).
When
the work with hara was completed, the next stage followed: the
division of the cocoon into two parts: the upper and the
lower bubbles of perception. It is from these bubbles that
one perceives the tonal and the nagual, respectively.
Division
of the cocoon into two bubbles of perception was
regarded as an important intermediate step towards further stages of
psychoenergetical self-perfection. One had to master concentration of
the consciousness in both “poles” of the cocoon divided
in such a way. Then,
further work was performed in order to develop the lower bubble
of perception. But it was started only after the consciousness had
been properly refined, or, as it was called in the don Juan’s
School, after the luminosity of the cocoon had been cleansed.
That
is, as in all other advanced spiritual Schools, the techniques aimed
at the refinement of the consciousness preceded the large-scale
process of its crystallization. However, Castaneda does not
describe the methods of “cleansing the luminosity” except the
one, which can be viewed only as a joke, namely — inhaling the
smoke of a fire.
Thanks
to the refinement of the consciousness and the work with the
lower bubble of perception, disciples attained the
state of Nirvana (though, they
did not know this Sanskrit term). First, they mastered the static
variation of Nirvana in Brahman, and after this — the dynamic
one.
Once
don Juan slapped Castaneda on the back with his hand (he often used
this technique to shift the assemblage point, that is the zone
of distribution of the disciple’s consciousness) — and Castaneda,
prepared for this by preceding exercises, entered the static
variation of Nirvana in one of the Brahmanic states. At that moment,
he for the first time experienced the state of deep peace, for the
first time he perceived God, he perceived that God is Love indeed…
But
suddenly he heard the voice of don Juan saying that this state was,
though fine, — not that to which he had to aspire now. You have to
advance further! Do not think that this is the limit of your
abilities… With these words don Juan suggested to Castaneda, who
had cognized the supreme bliss of Nirvana, not to “get attached”
to this bliss, but to keep on going further… At first, Castaneda
felt offended and angry with don Juan, but the latter was unbending:
one must advance further!…
And
what is further? It is the dynamic aspect of Nirvana when the
crystallized consciousness acts in the subtle eons. In this
state, one can touch with the consciousness any being within the
Earth and around it; in order to do this, one needs just to have
information about this being.
Then
the disciples of Juan Matus mastered the stat of Nirodhi, known in
all developed Schools of Buddhi Yoga. Don Juan described this state
also in endemic terms specific to this School. The disciples were
taught that there exist energy waves, which constantly roll on all
living creatures and from which we are shielded by our cocoons.
And that one can use the power of these waves for transferring
oneself with their help into unknown worlds. These unknown worlds are
other spatial dimensions. To make it happen, one has to allow
the rolling force to flood the cocoon. Then one turns
into “nothing”, one’s “I” dies.
It
is only after attaining the state of disappearance in Brahman that it
becomes possible to cognize Ishvara — and to disappear in Him
forever, having conquered death. That is, as don Juan understood, one
must not “skip past the Eagle’s beak” but to merge into
universal God-Power.
It
should be noted that with the help of the Fire one can master
dematerialization of the physical body. Juan Matus and his companions
performed this.
So,
we have considered the principal stages of work in the Buddhi Yoga
School of Juan Matus. They turn out to be common for all Schools of
Buddhi Yoga, regardless of the location of these Schools on the
Earth’s surface or whether they are connected with each other or
not, and regardless the languages spoken in these Schools and the
terms used in them. It is so because God guides people, who devote
their lives to Him, according to the same laws of spiritual
development.
And
now, let us consider in more detail the specific methods of work in
the School of Juan Matus, which have been described by Castaneda and
which we can apply to ourselves. They
can be divided into two groups: preliminary and basic ones.
The
first of the preliminary methods is recapitulation. In essence,
this is the same as repentance, which is present in all major
religions. The disciples had to recall — mainly in seclusion which
lasted for several days — all the mistakes they had made in their
lives, and to re-live those situations anew, this time correctly. To
make the disciples more “interested” in this very hard work, they
were told that during recapitulation they would regain the
energy wasted as a result of their incorrect emotional reactions. The
quality of the penitential work did not deteriorate because of this
trick, since its major goal — to learn to react in the ethically
correct way and to avoid sinning — was achieved, provided that the
disciples made due efforts.
They
also had to destroy the feeling of self-importance and self-pity —
since these qualities result in a tremendous waste of one’s
personal energy. Indeed, if one views oneself very important and
someone else encroaches on this importance with their disrespectful
attitude, one reacts with emotional outburst of resentment, anger,
and so forth. In this process, the energy of the organism is
intensively wasted.
Here
is an interesting fact of Castaneda’s biography: when his study in
don Juan’s School came to an end, he and his closest companion, la
Gorda — though Castaneda became a millionaire thanks to his books
and could live a life free from material concerns — in spite of
this, he and la Gorda got hired under different names as servants to
a rich man and suffered humiliations from rudeness and treachery of
other servants. They resorted to this in order to destroy completely
the feeling of self-importance, to erase from their memories their
own personal history — so as to attain humility. Since
everything that happens to a warrior on the physical plane, as
Castaneda put it, does not matter, the only thing that matters
is the state of the consciousness.
And
it is of no importance indeed, compared to the Supreme Goal! That
which is of principal importance is the ability to be naught, the
ability not to defend yourself when someone is unjust to
you, but to be protected — so taught don Juan. And the
state of being protected comes only when “there is no myself”,
when there is only God.
One
of the most essential preparatory elements of the work in the School
of Juan Matus was “sweeping of the tonal”, which is called
observance of aparigraha in the ethics of Hindu Yoga. We
have already mentioned the wise don Juan’s ability to explain the
most complicated philosophical matters in an easy-to-understand
manner using natural examples from everyday life. He did it, for
example, when explaining this principle to his disciples.
Once
don Juan assembled the disciples, took a sack and put into it a
radio, a tape recorder, and several other things found in the house
of one of the disciples. Then he gave this sack to one disciple to
carry, gave a table to another disciple to carry, and took them to
the mountains. In the middle of a valley, he told them to put the
table down and emptied the contents of the sack onto it. Then he took
the disciples at some distance from the table and asked them what
they saw.
They
said that they saw a radio… and so on and so forth…
Then
don Juan came to the table and whisked everything off it. “Take
another look and tell me what do you see now?”, he said. Only then
the disciples understood don Juan: he wanted them to see not only the
things on the table, but the table itself and more — the space
around the table. But the things on the table prevented the disciples
from seeing the world around by drawing their attention to
themselves.
In
this way don Juan demonstrated to his disciples that in order to
cognize the nagual, and then — God, one has to cleanse the tonal
around oneself. Perhaps,
it is appropriate to recall the example of observance of the same
principle in the history of Christianity: monks had in their cells,
besides icons and a few books, a coffin in which they slept — so as
to remember constantly about the inevitable death, which urges those
who remember about it to intensify their spiritual efforts.
Also,
don Juan taught the disciples to destroy stereotypes of material
life, as for instance, strict observance of one’s routines. For
what purpose? In order to attain freedom. The destruction of
unreasonable patterns of behavior, thinking, and reacting, instilled
in us in the process of our upbringing, must result in the “loss of
the human form”, that is, in attaining the state when we learn to
act not according to our reflexes or because it is customary to act
so, but in accordance with advisability. The “loss of the
human form” is not a short-term mechanic action, as some disciples
of don Juan fantasized, but a prolonged process, accompanying a man’s
gradual approach to God. This process comes to an end when the seeker
learns to look at all situations with the eyes of the Creator.
But
attaining the “loss of the human form” does not mean that man
starts to behave “unlike everyone else” in society, because,
first, inevitable conflicts with other people would prevent him from
fulfilling his main duty. Second, the conduct, which is “defiant”
by form, in many cases turns out to be a breach of the basic law of
objective ethics — making no harm to other living beings. This is
why the disciples were suggested to observe conventional norms of
behavior, sometimes secretly laughing at them and resorting to the
so-called “controlled folly”. To
illustrate this, don Juan once astounded Castaneda by taking off his
usual Indian garments and putting on an immaculate modern suit for
his trip to town!
In
connection with this, don Juan also taught his disciples to talk to
people in the language that they could understand. For example, once
he and Castaneda were sitting on a bench near a church and saw how
two not old ladies came out from a church and hesitated about
descending several steps. Then don Juan came and helped them to come
down, and advised them that if they fell, they should not move until
a doctor arrived. The ladies were sincerely grateful to him for this
advice.
The
next very important methodical technique is remembering about one’s
own death.
The
majority of people today are accustomed to banishing the thought of
their death. And even when we come across the facts of other people
passing away, we never try to imagine ourselves in their place. We
assure ourselves that even if this is going to happen to us, it is a
very long time ahead. If
each of us asks oneself now: “When will I die?” — the dates
will be very distant, though theoretically everyone knows that people
die at any age.
So,
don Juan suggested that we imagine that personified death is always
with us. And if one quickly looks back over the left shoulder, then
it is possible to catch a glimpse of death. “At this moment, death
is sitting next to you on the same mat, waiting for your mistake”,
he said to Castaneda. And no one is aware of the moment when he or
she is going to die; this is why we should not have any unfinished
works.
Let
me cite these remarkable words of don Juan, for it is one of his best
theoretical developments:
“How
can anyone feel so important when we know that death is stalking us?”
“The
thing to do when you are impatient is to turn to your left and ask
advice from your death. An immense amount of pettiness is dropped if
your death makes a gesture to you, or if you catch a glimpse of it,
or if you just have the feeling that your companion is there watching
you.”
“Death
is a wise adviser that we have… One… has to ask death’s advice
and drop the cursed pettiness that belongs to men that live their
lives as if death will never tap them!”
“If
you do not think of your death, all your life will be just personal
chaos!”
“The
warrior knows that death is stalking him or her and won’t give time
to cling to anything… And thus with an awareness of death,… and
with the power of own decisions, the warrior sets life in a strategic
manner… and what the warrior chooses is always strategically the
best; and thus the warrior performs everything with gusto and lusty
efficiency!”
“Life
for the warrior is an exercise in strategy.”
“Without
the awareness of death everything is ordinary, trivial. It is only
because death is stalking us that the world is an unfathomable
mystery.”
“You
have little time and no time for crap. A wonderful state! The best of
us always comes out when we are against the wall, when we feel the
sword dangling overhead. … I wouldn’t have it any other way.”
Another
important aspect of working with disciples was mastering the mental
pause or, in other words, stoppage of “inner dialogue” (the
first term is preferable because besides “inner dialogues” there
are also “inner monologues”). This
is an absolutely necessary prerequisite for mastering the nagual,
because the nagual is mastered by means of meditation, and
meditation, as Rajneesh put it nicely, is the state of non-mind.
That is, to learn to immerse the consciousness into the nagual, one
has to learn to stop, to switch off the mind.
For
the purpose of attaining the mental pause, don Juan used the
following techniques:
1. Psychedelics. It should be noted, however, that don Juan used this
method only in the very beginning of their joint work, and later on
he gave it up. Second, Castaneda complained afterwards that though he
was immensely grateful to don Juan for everything that he had done
for him, but nonetheless his (Castaneda’s) liver was still marked
with scars. Hence, it is absolutely unadvisable to follow their
example as to using psychedelics. All the more, there are other, far
more effective and harmless means of mastering the mental
pause at our disposal.
2.
“Gazing”. One had to look at some object for a long time and in
fixed manner, for example, at a ravine, flowing water, and so on. As
a result, the first attention got exhausted and switched
off leaving room for the second attention.
3. Prolonged suspension of one’s body on devices like a swing.
The
training mentioned above resulted in attaining the state that in
Chinese Yoga is called wu-wei — non-doing, that
is non-doing on the physical plane, when the mind (manas) stops, and
we get the opportunity for directed meditation, for the activity of
the buddhi. Manas and buddhi are in reciprocal relations: they cannot
act simultaneously, at any point in time only one of them operates.
(That does not mean that a person without a body or in the state of
meditation loses reason. No. A developed
crystallizedconsciousness thinks. But it thinks in another way, not
in the earthly manner).
Another
unique technique developed in this School by don Juan’s
predecessors is intentional interaction with people-tyrants. The
technique was employed for attainment of impeccability of a
warrior, i.e. the ability to follow ethical principles and adhere to
strategy of objectively valid behavior in situations of urgency. Some
time in the past don Juan himself was sent by his teacher to a fierce
foreman-tyrant for such training. In Mexico such people were
considered very rare, and to find one was regarded a big luck by
warriors.
Now
let us list the methods of psychoenergetical work used in the don
Juan’s School:
1. Cleansing of the inner luminosity (i.e. the refinement of the
consciousness).
2. Use of places of power — energetically significant
zones favorable for mastering particular meditations.
3. Dreaming, which was given much attention in the work of the School.
What is it? Many people, having read Castaneda’s books, try to use
their night sleep for this purpose without success. No, this is not
the way it must be done. Dreaming is a synonym of the
word meditation. Due to being unfamiliar with the terms
commonly accepted in other countries, Central American Indians had to
find their own words to denote techniques, phenomena, and objects of
spiritual practice. This is how the term dreamingwas born,
since meditative images sometimes are really similar to the images
one sees in dreams.
Special
training in dreaming allowed the disciples, in the state
of being detached from the body, to run on the walls, to climb along
energy beams (the lines of the world), and so on.
4. Learning to act in extreme magical situations, intentionally created
by the preceptor. For this purpose, ethical vices of the disciples
were used. For example, if a disciple had an inclination to attack
selfishly other people, he or she was suggested to take part in a
magical fight that he or she would lose for sure. And it turned out
beneficial for all the participants.
5.
The technique of shifting the assemblage point as a
result of energetic impact of the preceptor (this was called
Nagual’s blow; the term Nagual had another meaning in
this case: a leader who mastered the nagual and is capable of acting
in it and from it).
6.
Practice of meditative leveling-off of the energy
emanationsinside the cocoon in accordance with the outer
emanations of the highest spatial dimensions.
7.
Work with hara aimed at the development of the power aspect.
8.
Use of allies (that is, spirits). It was done in two ways.
The
first one — “taming” of spirits who had to, according to the
plan, become assistants and protectors of the sorcerer. Both don Juan
and his friend Genaro had such allies in the
beginning of their spiritual quest.
But
everyone must be warned that this is an erroneous and dangerous
practice, which we in no way should try imitating. By the way, both
don Juan and Genaro gave up this practice later on.
The
other way of working with allies consisted in hunting
them. No wonder such a tendency existed among Indians who lived in
constant contact with wildlife. So, the disciples were told that at
some moment they were sure to come across some ally in
male human form who would challenge them to a fight. One can lose in
this combat, giving way to fear, or one can win. In the latter case,
one acquires the power of that spirit.
And
the disciples prepared themselves for such a fight, which could take
place any moment, by developing alertness (readiness) and other
necessary qualities of warriors. On
the basis of this educational game, the disciples performed, in
particular, the work on the development of the lower bubble of
perception.
To sum up the above
said, let us consider the basic aspects of these Teachings, which are
extremely rich in valuable theoretical and practical elements.
Don
Juan pointed out three directions in the Teachings: a) the art of
stalking, b) the art of intent, and c) the art of consciousness.
In
the history of this Indian spiritual tradition, the art of stalking
initially consisted in the ability to sneak, to stalk unnoticed among
people who do not understand you (that is, people of lower stages of
psychogenesis) — and to achieve your Goal.
But
later on, owing in particular to personal contribution of don Juan,
this trend was significantly expanded and included also the stalking
of one’s own vices. We have discussed this already. Let me just
quote one brilliant formula, given by don Juan: God (in his parlance,
Power) provides according to our impeccability. That is, God gives us
an opportunity to approach Him, to immerse into increasing happiness
of Mergence with Him — as we perfect ourselves ethically.
The
second direction is the art of intent.Intent, in this context, is the
same as aspiration to the Supreme Goal. A true warrior, in don Juan’s
meaning of this word, is a person with the correctly developed
intent.
The third direction is the art of consciousness — it is what Buddhi Yoga is.
The third direction is the art of consciousness — it is what Buddhi Yoga is.
So,
we could see once again, that God leads all people, who have attained
a certain level of maturity in their psychogenesis, irrespective of
the country and religious culture they live in, using the common
methodological pattern. We should study these principles and trends
and apply them to ourselves and to the people who follow us.
03 August 2012
8
name(s) in chaldean: 8
date: 8th
zodiac: 8th
year: 88
ss-serial: 88th
8th hexagram of the i Ching is Pî, translating to holding together.
There is depicted here a ruler, or influential man, to whom people are
attracted. Those who come to him he accepts, those who do not come are
allowed to go their own way. He invited none, flatters none—all come of
their own free will. In this way there develops a voluntary dependence
among those who hold him. They do not have to be constantly on their
guard but may express their opinions openly. Police measures are not
necessary, and they cleave to their ruler of their own volition. The same
principle of freedom is valid for life in general. We should not woo favor
from people. If a man cultivates within himself the purity and the strength
that are necessary for one who is the center of a fellowship, those who are
meant for him come of their own accord.”
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